not technical

i find that i’m not that technical any longer.  i mean, i understand the technical nuances of projects and the trials and tribulations of implementing a given technology.  however, i no longer desire to be on the burning technical edge for the sake of technology.

no, i long to play the part i’ve created for myself.  i’m really the visionary guy who keeps watch on what’s changing, what’s new and how it fits with the needs of an organization.

i’m currently looking forward to fulfilling this role very soon.  a large corporation has extended an invitation to me, which i’ve accepted.  it is basically a social media architect/strategist role, though they labeled it differently to fit their older job descriptions list.

the opportunity to look at problems and know that i’m the one breaking ground is a huge game changer for me.  i no longer have to think about which bits to twiddle, rather i get to figure out both the long and short term strategies for a fortune 500 company.  that is an eye opener as well as a refreshing idea for me.

i look forward to the new challenges, knowing that i don’t have to jump up at 3am to answer a ‘server down’ page. my how times change.

worried on work

i’m in a bit of a quandary over work right now. first, i’m simply worried that there isn’t anything to jump into in two weeks when my contract dries up. second, i’m worried that i might need to end up choosing from sub-optimal options when there is a juicy choice just a few more weeks out.

here’s to hoping that i don’t wait too long or that i think further a few more steps down the path before i leap.

losing focus

i’ve done it again. i’ve lost focus on my goals and my agenda. i’ve not posted about this on my real blog, but feel that i need to very soon.

it started over a year ago when i had money issues when starting a business. since then, things have gotten better on the income side of things, but i had to “shelve” the idea of working for myself as a professional blogger. i here some of you laughing, and sure, it’s a difficult if not improbable goal for the most part.

but to me it seems that i have much to say, many opinions to help people, and really want to succeed as a teacher and communicator rather than an information technology professional. i have a good career in technology, but wish to do more things on my own.

i’ve lost the focus that i started with a couple years ago with my blog. the desire is there, the ideas continue to stream, but the time and ability to gain traction in simply doing is missing. there are many other things going on as well, with conferences and events that i’m part of and working on making happen. people are counting on me to come through and perform in these areas. that alone is stressfull to me as well.

so, here i go, to sort through the last year and find the time, the ability to focus on what needs to be done. here is where i restart my agenda, my initiatives and regain the momentum i feel i’ve lost. now is the time, today is the day i start my plans anew.

more ponderings

ponderings from the ponderosa… ok i’ll stop.

the thoughts keep flowing, but i don’t have the time to write them down. i’ve gone from completely dead on the work front for a week (which was nice time off) to full steam 16hr days. at least 2 in a row that is. i just launched a new theme on my blog and i have not had time to write posts for it. i’m behind and i’m feeling bad again.

so it’s back to the word processor to try and get at least a post for tomorrow nailed together. wish me luck.