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it always amazes me how much we rush every day, in nearly everything we do.  a simple task is made stressful because of traffic, a calm day at the beach is made less relaxing because of crowds and the need to stand in line for whatever.

where did we go wrong in our bustling modern society that makes us feel like we need to rush, or hurry, or do things faster than is really necessary?

i’m sitting at a local park on my lunch hour, taking a full 60 minutes to unwind from the stress of the office.  at this park is a very picturesque little lake that is also bordered by an interstate on the north side.  its this dichotomy that inspired this post today.

folks like me, taking 15, 20, 30 minutes out of their day, out of their lunch hour and coming to this park for a quick detox from the office.  some simply watch the waves on the lake, others the traffic.  a number of them are out getting their mid-day walk in, and many more enjoying the shade.

the interesting thing is that, while there are a number of people about, we’re in the minority.  we’re just a few people finding he relaxation, or making the time to walk out of the building to the car, driving a couple blocks, and sitting watching what relaxes us.  where are the rest of those that need it?  what happens when folks don’t take the time every day to find the calm and peace within that balances each of us out?

how does this affect their coworkers? how does this unbalance their lives?  is it any of my business?

the still of the water and the rush of the fast interstate traffic is the extremes in my field of view today and i’m just glad that i’m here to enjoy the few quiet minutes today.

forgive me father for i have strayed.  my posts are few, and words fewer.  i have lost the path and lost the will.  i wish it were a dream, but it is the truth.  i’ve lost my way on my blogging journey and must find it anew.

what is this path i’ve chosen?  why do people believe me to be an expert in a field that barely exists.  how did i get to this point? why do they look to me for leadership? what is the purpose of this torture? how do i satisfy their curiosity, thirst for knowledge and desire to learn?  can i fulfill the promise?  am i the one?

why me?

i’m working my way back to you; to my blog that is. this could easily be my third post here on a space for words about losing focus, but it won’t be this time! my emphasis of late has been to work hard on getting back into the writing groove.

to this end, i’ve spooled up more tunes, some old, some new, that help me disengage from the goings-on around me and help to induce that inner contemplation that helps me start thinking and dreaming.

the dreaming is the important part. i remember as a teen back in the early 1980s driving around, listening to some of these tunes, with the windows down the breeze blowing my hair and the world before me.

i had the good fortune to grow up out in the country – western wisconsin to be specific. these good times defined who i was ultimately to become, and more importantly shaping the very foundations of my beliefs.

one of those beliefs is in hard work. i believe it’s time for some of that hard work, getting back to where i want to be.

what do you do when your imagination is left to flow through your humanity for a few days? how do you reconcile that, when you feel like you have to mask who you are at the end? how do you change so many things about your worldview and beliefs? or is it simply actually discovering who you really are and learning the truth? am i simply becoming comfortable with who i am and simply finding ways to express it?