forgive me

forgive me father for i have strayed.  my posts are few, and words fewer.  i have lost the path and lost the will.  i wish it were a dream, but it is the truth.  i’ve lost my way on my blogging journey and must find it anew.

what is this path i’ve chosen?  why do people believe me to be an expert in a field that barely exists.  how did i get to this point? why do they look to me for leadership? what is the purpose of this torture? how do i satisfy their curiosity, thirst for knowledge and desire to learn?  can i fulfill the promise?  am i the one?

why me?

random thoughts while watching the river

i sit by the river watching the water and the clouds go by.

i wonder at the scope and grandeur of it all – how do i fit in?

the constructs we’ve created are small in comparison.

moving and flowing through our time, our lives become larger than we imagined.

watching and waiting should not be part of the plan.

making and doing are what’s needed at this time.

how to motivate my fellowman, that is what i want to do.