thinking ahead

for once i’m thinking and not dwelling. what i mean is that i’m thinking on my next steps in this part of the economy that so many people are afraid of. i’m watching for the opportunities that are always passing by. i’m not afraid of failing.

perhaps that is the strength that is fueling me at this time. when everyone else is stocking their bunker, i’m out scouting, exploring the territories so recently vacated by people too timid to try. to them the sky is falling, or at least looks like it. to me, it’s a grand opportunity to build my world, expand my empire, stake my claim, and reap the rewards for my family and myself.

it’s not that i don’t see the risks – i do. however, i have nothing of value that i can loose, and therefore have the advantage as i plow forward, going where others can’t or won’t at this time.

the other part of the equation is that i don’t believe this crisis to be as bad as it’s being made out to be.

losing focus

i’ve done it again. i’ve lost focus on my goals and my agenda. i’ve not posted about this on my real blog, but feel that i need to very soon.

it started over a year ago when i had money issues when starting a business. since then, things have gotten better on the income side of things, but i had to “shelve” the idea of working for myself as a professional blogger. i here some of you laughing, and sure, it’s a difficult if not improbable goal for the most part.

but to me it seems that i have much to say, many opinions to help people, and really want to succeed as a teacher and communicator rather than an information technology professional. i have a good career in technology, but wish to do more things on my own.

i’ve lost the focus that i started with a couple years ago with my blog. the desire is there, the ideas continue to stream, but the time and ability to gain traction in simply doing is missing. there are many other things going on as well, with conferences and events that i’m part of and working on making happen. people are counting on me to come through and perform in these areas. that alone is stressfull to me as well.

so, here i go, to sort through the last year and find the time, the ability to focus on what needs to be done. here is where i restart my agenda, my initiatives and regain the momentum i feel i’ve lost. now is the time, today is the day i start my plans anew.

nothing to say

nothing to say and no way around it.
i’m so drained creatively.
i cannot compete at the same level today.
my eye is not on the ball.
my abilities have not changed.
my goals have not changed.
my desires have not changed.
my routine has changed.
but that is not an excuse.
i have let my environment impact my goals.
i have allowed myself to be distracted.
i am not applying myself 100% to my agenda.
i have taken the easy path (again) and I hate it.
i want to succeed in my goals.
i want to succeed in my writing.
i will work to change this today.
i will work to change this tomorrow.
i will work to change this over the weekend.