insults from a peer

i wonder at times when a person insults another person. what makes them do it? yes another day at the office is how i should look at it, but i still wonder why it’s so easy for people to make a comment without thinking of the outcome.

my hopes are that my friend stops by sometime today to apologize, because i really do respect his knowledge and skills. his non-interest in my opinion and the outright insult to my knowledge was quite a poisoned pill, however.

it is kind of sad really, because he was looking at something from only one perspective and berating the methods and processes in place. without thinking of the larger picture and other perspectives on the reasoning behind a chosen business process, it really does make me sad in a way. he’s missing another whole piece that would bring more depth to his knowledge if he wanted it.

desires

i’m realizing that i have a desire to do something different, to find a new way or path. though i’ve been an information technologies guy for a long time, the fascination with technology has morphed into a passion for using technology.

it used to be very fun for me to simply make things work. technology used to be a grand puzzle that required understanding, time, and planning to make things work like we wanted them to. innovation and technological progress has changed that drastically. now it’s quite simple to do things that once required expensive equipment or software; or required extensive knowledge that was outside of most peoples specialties.

information technology used to be a passion. it used to be the fuel for my career, fulfilling adventure and advancement at the same time. alas, it no longer plays that central role. the technology is still “cool”, and the puzzles are still there, but i find them more and more irrelevant to my desires.

new adventures are calling me, and though my income is still dependent on an information technology role, i just don’t have the passion for it. my desires are taking me elsewhere. on to new experiences and new challenges.

losing focus

i’ve done it again. i’ve lost focus on my goals and my agenda. i’ve not posted about this on my real blog, but feel that i need to very soon.

it started over a year ago when i had money issues when starting a business. since then, things have gotten better on the income side of things, but i had to “shelve” the idea of working for myself as a professional blogger. i here some of you laughing, and sure, it’s a difficult if not improbable goal for the most part.

but to me it seems that i have much to say, many opinions to help people, and really want to succeed as a teacher and communicator rather than an information technology professional. i have a good career in technology, but wish to do more things on my own.

i’ve lost the focus that i started with a couple years ago with my blog. the desire is there, the ideas continue to stream, but the time and ability to gain traction in simply doing is missing. there are many other things going on as well, with conferences and events that i’m part of and working on making happen. people are counting on me to come through and perform in these areas. that alone is stressfull to me as well.

so, here i go, to sort through the last year and find the time, the ability to focus on what needs to be done. here is where i restart my agenda, my initiatives and regain the momentum i feel i’ve lost. now is the time, today is the day i start my plans anew.